Contentedly Complacent

Complacent


Adjective;


"showing smug or uncritical satisfaction with oneself or one's achievements."


Content

Adjective;


"in a state of peaceful happiness."


Hi. My name is ----- and I am guilty of fighting too hard against complacency.


Now I know that sounds like an oxymoron, but hear me out. In my life, the one thing I have never wished to be is mundane. To be ordinary, below attention, not worthy of special mention, were my greatest fears. As a result of this mindset, I have always struggled to be more. As ungrammatical as that sentence is, it fits my situation very well. I wanted to be "more" in all areas. Notability, career accomplishments, renown, personal character, respectability, trustworthiness, mental acuity, any area of life in which it is possible to excel, I wanted to excel, and excel more than all others around me. Understandably, this led me to have a very competitive, industrious nature. This nature has been both a blessing and a curse. The area that applies here is the curse.
As someone who is constantly looking for more accomplishments in any given area of life, I have yet to be satisfied with any accomplishments of my own. While many would say: "Isn't it a good thing to never rest on your accomplishments?" Well, yes, and no. I have achieved much more than even I realize because of my diligence and perseverance. However, with complacency as my main enemy, I have also succeeded in developing an internal will to achieve more that has effectively disabled my ability to be content! As I constantly search for a better job, a higher rate of pay, more influential accomplishments, and relationships that will yield the most rewards, I find myself forgetting that God commands us to be content in whatever situation we find ourselves. Not that I should be satisfied with ordinary, but I should be striving to be extraordinary in ways that will glorify and bring honor to the name of Christ and His church, not in ways that bring honor to myself. The drive to achieve more has successfully stripped away my appreciation of now. I fail to appreciate the physical blessings in my life, the relationships which God has seen fit to bring about, and the daily workings of God's hand in my life to give me the optimum balance of trials and good fortune to bring my spiritual self to full maturity. I have striven to put as much distance between myself and complacency as possible, and in so doing, have also left an ever widening space between my soul and true contentedness.
I still do not advocate resting on one's laurels, or placing overmuch emphasis on accomplishments gone by. However, I do believe that in our rush to achieve all that of which we are capable, we must not forget that God has designed a plan which may not include financial success, public lauding, or even 3 meals in a day. I may not accomplish all of the things that I wish to accomplish in this life. I may never have the level of physical success to which I aspire. I do not believe this means that I should stop working towards a further goal each day. But. I do believe that the goals which I strive toward must be spiritual ones. I should be working towards greater spiritual maturity, increased ministerial success, and a deeper personal fellowship with the Lord of this universe. When these things are added to my life, the physical success will comes as God wills it, and never will I feel the despairing pangs of complacency. I will be aware of His blessings, and He will teach me to be content. In my drive for success, I have become complacent in my inability to be content. That attitude should be the true enemy. Our goal should not be one of earthly ambition, but of a higher calling, and a constantly renewed appreciation of the life with which we are so richly blessed.


"Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am in, therewith to be content. I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: everywhere and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need. I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me."
Philippians Chapter 4, verses 11 through 13. King James Bible.


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Desperation's Reach

Asking me to take your hand

Not even realizing you're already out of reach

Not wanting to hear a word I say

You're not in church you say so why preach

The words I cannot utter

Held captive by a heart that is weak

It seems only my life blood can escape

From that prison of thoughts with a leak

I don't know what more to do

To make you see the gulf we must bridge

If only you would respond with acceptance

Instead of quiet hardness and umbrage

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Hollow Living

Ecclesiastes chapter 1, verses 1 and 2

The words of the Preacher, the son of David, king in Jerusalem.

 Vanity of vanities, saith the Preacher, vanity of vanities; all is vanity.

That's what The Lord himself said

None of this is gonna matter once you wind up dead

Try to tell me all these fairy tales livin up inside your head

Make your pathway better but it's really mud in which you tread

I'm not bein negative I'm just quotin what I read

It's by our own devices to hell's doorway we are led

Voices around us all

All tellin us we livin good

Not that our living should be clean

Instead we'll just look through a hood

Tie die colored so we don't see

Your view is life misunderstood

Tellin me to make the best of it

Love them through their flaws

Don't you talk that moral code

Or apply those holy laws

You just might go an offend em

And expose the truth about their cause

It's self delusion called complacency

Leading them to deaths cold jaws

Voices around us all

All tellin us we livin good

Not that our living should be clean

Instead we'll just look through a hood

Tie die colored so we don't see

Your view is life misunderstood

I'm not saying that you can't relax

Or dress up lookin nice

Or compliment a situation

When things just roll like dice

Just keep in mind it's all a front

And you will realize

What truly matters that you do and say

Before you're put on ice

Voices around us all

All tellin us we livin good

Not that our living should be clean

Instead we'll just look through a hood

Tie die colored so we don't see

Your view is life misunderstood.